Clarity will eventually come

Frustration is one major emotion that results from not having clarity concerning something. We all want clarity, whether it’s in that project we’re working on, or even our future; whether its school or career. We simply want to make the right decisions.

I'm someone that has struggled to find clarity when it comes to what I'm supposed to do or the direction I'm supposed to take, even about the future. I find myself asking questions like ‘what next?’, ‘what do I want to do?’, ‘what’s best to do?’, ‘what ways do I reach the peak of my ability?’ Most times, it’s frustrating because even though you want to move forward, you're not sure what direction and what’s worse is you are running out of time. The time that you could use to get something done, you use it to stay where you are, contemplating what direction to take.

When I was younger, I knew I wanted to work in the lab. I liked the idea of being a scientist and working in the lab from the cartoon, Dexter’s laboratory. When it was time to get into university, my parents pressured me to pick Medicine. I did for a few universities but I didn’t get the admission. When it came to the last university to apply to, I told them that I was going to apply for Medical Laboratory Sciences and they finally agreed.

Guess what? I got the admission. Was excited about it and just like most people do when they get admission into the university, I had real plans on ‘what next’.

Fast forward to my final year in school, I realized that Medical Laboratory wasn’t for me; the irony right? Anyway, human behavior interested me more and I wished I had known this earlier so I would have read psychology in school. Still conflicted about what path to take, I completed my undergraduate education, did my foreign graduate program in Nigeria that would enable me get a license to practice as a Medical Laboratory Scientist, I served and I'm currently working in a hospital.

Now the next stage is to do my masters but I've avoided that conversation with my father because I really don’t want to go further in the medical field by adding another degree. It looks good but I know that’s not what I want and I’ll just feel guilty for wasting my parent’s money and for wasting my time. So what do I want?

I believe when you have no clarity on a path to take, just keep doing something and eventually, it gets clearer and clearer.

After graduation in 2017, I opened a blog on WordPress. I wrote about my thoughts about life and human behavior. As time went on, I discovered a community of bloggers and realized that there’s more to blogging than writing what I thought. In 2018, I decided to become self-hosted. I learned a lot about blogging, content marketing, SEO and the likes. I knew I had to create a niche for me and I started blogging about faith and human behavior. I knew how to create and curate contents.

I also delved a little into tech and even started learning about product design. I put my hands into coding before I finally realized that’s not what I would want. It gets hard to choose a path especially when you get excited about a lot of things. This is because you want to do a lot but the truth is you have to focus on one and with time, find a way to make other interests of yours work. This is why someone can move with just one thing in mind and you being better but interested in a lot of things can be stranded.

So what’s the point of all I've said so far?

I can’t claim that I have complete clarity of purpose or what exactly I want to do right now. It’s not as specific as I want it to be. I do know that I am interested in human behavior and also in helping people. I also know that myself now has more clarity on what next to do in my life than myself in 2017, 2018, 2019 or even just last month.

Why is that?

In the little I'm doing, in all I've put my hands in (some people have called me confused but I don’t blame them, I totally understand why), I know what isn’t going to work for me, what will work for me and even how I might put them together to gain fulfillment and satisfaction. An amazing personality in this journey of mine is the Holy Spirit and I'm so grateful for Him.

Here’s the take-away

Sometimes we get confused about what to do in life and it can be frustrating. However, rather than doing nothing and waiting to gain that big clarity, keep moving. You can try your hands on a lot of thing, eventually; you’ll know what works for you and what doesn’t. As you move, the path you're to take becomes clearer and clearer. It only gets better.

Finally, take God with you, let Him even lead the way.

Remember,

In the doing, you gain clarity